Posted by Damos on June 13, 2005, at 17:25:21
In reply to Re: (((Damos))), posted by alexandra_k on June 13, 2005, at 5:19:40
Well the changes you describe to the DSM have got to be an improvement.
What about the therapist that the P-doc was going to refer you to based on the DID dx? I know that would be outside the system but did you ever actually meet her and if so did she seem like someone you could work with?
Please don't be sad Alex. You know if they tell you you're impossible to work with often enough and you're teminated often enough and you don;t feel like you're getting anywhere, of course you're going to start blaming yourself. Just because you take them out of their comfort zone is no reason for them to disgard you. This "I don't do BPD or DID or I just want to push pills" is just a cop out. It doesn't sound like anyone has ever just let you be with them long enough without trying to fix you for you to even begin to feel comfortable working with them. It's that security thing we share. It takes people like us a long time to really open up to anyone about anything. Surely there is a need to build a relationship where you feel safe, supported, validated and comfortable before anything else. That's why loosing these people I've worked with for so long is hitting home hard. My safety net is being pulled away and it scares me.
If you want to see that therapist or someone else or whatever, I'll give you whatever support and help I can. If you want to be your own therapist and just use me to bounce stuff off that's okay too. All I can promise is to be honest with you and to respond based on what I feel and believe and to be your friend first and foremost.
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