Posted by AdaGrace on April 28, 2005, at 7:57:53
In reply to You, Him, Them, Us, posted by AdaGrace on April 25, 2005, at 11:13:04
Afraid that one will win out over the other.
It seems impossible for the parts to become a whole.The loss, the loss I experienced is the loss of my soul........I loved with all my heart, and I lost everything when I lost that, including my sanity.
How very sickening to love a man more than your own children, more than your family, and above all more than yourself.
I am sickened by my behavior, yet even today. If he were to call, I would dearly love to talk to him. I'd run to the phone, I'd knock down anyone or thing in my path, I would do anything to get to his voice. I'd hear his promisses and I'd believe them, because I loved completely. I loved so very completely. I was the pedestal upon which he stood in my eyes. How sad. How very sad.
Used, abused, broken, and tosses away.
I was a toy, a plaything, and yet would become that again if given a chance.
I would have done anything for him.
you name it.
I would have done it.
lied, cheated, stole, even killed for him.How very sad that is.
poster:AdaGrace
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