Posted by alexandra_k on March 4, 2005, at 16:33:29
In reply to Re: I just want to, posted by Susan47 on March 4, 2005, at 7:12:34
> I don't know how to make things well for myself anymore.
I think... I think you need to try to tell your new t a bit about what is going on for you. The way you tell us here.
>I can't go into the old T's office
No Susan. You have to stop that.
>and see any kindness or acceptance, I'm in so much unbelievable psychic pain I don't know if it's going to ease or what.
Every time you talk to him...
Every time you see him...
It is being hurt
Over and over again.
You have to stop that Susan.
For your own sanity.
>My new T maybe I should call her but I'm afraid she's going to think less of me, the way the old T does.
It doesn't sound like you have gotten very attached to her. She is probably feeling a bit like she can't reach you or connect with you and she doesn't know what is really going on for you.
I think you should call her.
I don't think she would think any the less of you.
And if she did then it is good to know that now and get the hell out of there and go find somebody competent. Better to find that out sooner rather than later.
She is not your old t.
And that is the beauty of it.
Talk to her Susan.
And if you can't then write to her.
It is a risk
But if you don't stand to lose anything then you don't really stand to gain anything either.