Posted by tankgirl on November 20, 2004, at 1:38:27
In reply to Xanax Addiction, posted by tankgirl on November 17, 2004, at 2:29:56
Just wanted to update. I left a small piece of history out of my old post, I was addicted to inssuffilating heroin for a year, '01 to '02.. and also oxycontin (i actually prefferred that to heroin, it was a "cleaner" high)
So, the day after I made the Xanax Addiction post, I got my prescription for 180mg in the form of 1mg pills. I finished them off yesterday in the morning.
Later last night I came across the old demon Oxycontin in a long time. I ended up finding one 40mg Oxy. I scraped off the outer paint that may/may not be a tim release coving, but it tastes bad. i cut the pill in half, inteding to swollow half and snort the rest, but i ate that half, and instead of snorting, i just licked the powder up and washed it down with water. Its pathetic, thats the only pill I've ever actually LIKED the taste of. I hope I dont run into Oxys again, last time I had such a problem I had to move from Orlando to the southern central east coast of FL (just far enough.. thank goodness!). I'm afraid that Ill pick up this old habit again, now that I know that somehow.. maybe even by demeaning myself, I'll have access to Oxy's again. I want them so much, even today. Granted most people dont have THIS much of an addictive personality, but I do!
I'm stuck! I have no more pills for the rest of the month.. which makes me think i should just say screw it and sink back into that stage of my life in which NOTHING mattered more than Oxycontin, thats my big O!
Not to mention, all that xanax is gone. I'm still not even sober from the Oxycontin, as I havent exactly been eating.. i would make a grilled cheese, but im afraid ill nod off and set the darn house on fire..