Posted by alexandra_k on April 11, 2015, at 23:18:29
In reply to Re: fear, posted by alexandra_k on April 11, 2015, at 23:02:35
things have been going better for me...
perhaps because people know what i'm up to. government people. so i get disability... so they let me alone, basically.
but i do worry about other people, some...
e.g., i saw this job being advertised in work and income. it was a job at the airport. horrible (night) hours... but the real point was that the amount of money it would cost you to park at the airport or to bus yourself out to the airport most probably would have exceeded the amount you were paid per hour.
yet legally, work and income can cut your benefit if you don't apply for jobs they tell you to apply for. so... a worker takes a dislike to you... and says you have to apply for that job.
they can do that.
and so... some people... prefer to live on the streets. rather than to get the unemployment welfare benefits that we say people are 'entitled' to (in virtue of being human).
there are people who just want to loaf about all day... but there's something wrong with these people. they need help and compassion not... bullying. not to be treated worse than i would want any animal to be treated. they are full of salt and sugar and chemicals... i get more money for food than most students do... most studnets are full of salt and sugar and chemicals... no wonder they can't focus on their work... no wonder they don't have a love of learning or curiosity...
they need help and compassion... not to be treated like pests...
even though you sort of have to help them when they are dragging and screaming... the attitudes that people have to things that are healthy / good for them... especially when it comes to things like sugar... the addictive chemicals... malnourished people... in the supposedly developed world... it is sad...
i am very lucky.
i never really thought about how freaking fragile 'our' way of life was... with respect to... what cost. to the rest of the world... no... to this world. one only need to open ones eyes.
it does hurt. stuffing yourself with carbs... alcohol... chemicals... helps numb things somehow...
the compression gear i got... it has helped habituate me to people, somehow. the crowds of first year... i'm habituating to people somehow. i'm becoming hypersensitive to... technology. the noise of cars and trucks and construction and the phones (not even really pretending to be phones anymore) the surveillance devices... the televisions...
how fragile things are... if one day out of the blue your logins don't work anymore and you are forced offline... you can't function in society without a phone... can you still buy non-smart phones? how long would it take for your friends smart-phones to identify you thus you can get blocked out again...
how fragile personhood is in the developed 'free' world.
night terrors... damn.
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