Posted by Phil on March 12, 2014, at 19:00:02
anhedonia is defined as the inability to experience pleasure from activities usually found enjoyable. (hard to treat)
got my friends back and for two full days i felt happy. not manic happy, just happy. i realized that anhedonia has been with me the whole time. the last few nights hallucinations are back. slept maybe an hour. and it's back.
that brief glance at happiness showed me why it's so hard for me to get excited to do anything. it's because i don't feel good.
i don't exaggerate when talking MI. i don't have to. my doctor asks, how have you been? really well. phil, would you like to try that again? really scared, doc. i can only go so many rounds with the beast. when will happy come my way again? it was so cool. i went from i can't to where do i begin? there's so much to do.
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