Posted by yellowbird01 on February 9, 2009, at 19:26:15
My boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up this weekend. It's a long story but the breakup was basically because we both agree there is no future long term for us because we want different things in terms of family etc... NOT because we dont want to be together NOW. He is my best friend, and really.. only real friend. He's the only person I feel I can really be myself with. He knows everything about me, and I know everything about him. This is a HUGE loss. I am miserable. Barely functioning. Laid in bed in the dark for several hours this morning but then pulled it together and went to work for a few hours.. but didnt get anything done. I know I'm not the only person who has ever had an important relationship end, but I feel like I'll never survive this. It almost hurts to breathe. There is nothing in my life that doesnt remind me of him. We talked 3 or more times a day and even though we havent cut off communication completely, it's so hard.... so hard. The hardest thing I've ever felt in my life. How do you deal? How do you get past this? How do I even function? I love him so much and I cant imagine that never again in my life will I kiss him, cuddle on the couch... never again. Not once. Never. Oh my god...... how will I ever do it? I cant. It hurts.
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