Posted by zenhussy on October 9, 2008, at 15:59:25
In reply to :-( So stressed. Make that STRESSED, posted by Kath on October 9, 2008, at 15:29:28
ok Kath......listen here lady.........this is kinda disaster thinking and let's break it down tiny bit by tiny bit....
>>And at this point he won't be able to afford internet hookup & he uses it every night to talk with friends on Myspace. I am SO afraid that without it he will get depressed....and that brings back the situation in the rooming house he was in last year at this time & him being SO depressed & ending up using cocaine again (although I didn't know that until last January).<<<
your fears come through loud and clear here. however could your fears of the past be just that? it is easy to understand how one can hold onto old fears given the non linear path of addiction and recovery but it is also important to remember and remind oneself that what happened in the past ISN'T SET IN STONE to repeat in the future. it only *feels* that way.
you can only do so much for your son's wellbeing....and you're doing tons and being a great ma........but you cannot do everything for him nor fight all his battles.
there will be backsliding and slippage during his recovery and you need to keep taking care of YOU so that you're not being pulled under by his issues.
please take a moment to breathe...........a couple long slow in and out breaths. sounds like your anxiety and worry are getting the best of you. stinks that anxiety and worry often don't listen to rational reasoning but that's the nature of those beasts.
be gentle w/ you Kath. this too shall pass. you're doing your best for your son but please don't forget about taking care of YOU too. k?
Love to you Capital K Kath.
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