Posted by Fivefires on April 17, 2008, at 23:28:35
In reply to Re: I've been too sick too long » Fivefires, posted by Kath on April 17, 2008, at 20:35:01
CON'FUZZ'CIOUS 5f SAY 'HUH KATH????' 'DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN?' 'IS THERE SOMEONE HERE BESIDES ME WHO TOOK ME OVER FOR A WHILE?'
Seriously Kath, something just happened, prior to my reading your post and being confused. It was the following:
I rec'd a phone call from the uncle I was scared was going to die and then there wouldn't be any of my father left on this crummy earth, and he complemented me on my writing!????? o____o
o____o o____o ?
And: I'm suddenly feeling well, even maybe well enough to .. yikes can hardly type the words .. okay here goes .. ggggeeet iiiiiiiiin thtththe shoshoshowshowshowwwwwer!
So you know what this means? I JUST DIAGNOSED MY OWN REAL MENTAL ILLNESS. I MUST BE ATYPICALLY MENTALLY ILL!!!!!! yippee, yip yip yip, yippppeeeee
And that means if maybe my pdoc or my pcp will at least let me try Nardil, I might get close to normal! (Don't want to be too close, just quite a bit closer.)
Whatta ya' think? Did I just not have a revelation or what?
I'm freakin'. I feel like... wait a minute ... did I just need some attention? I am like Bob? What About Bob Bob? That was all he needed.
After my uncle told me this, I started writing a long letter to the wife of a man who was my father's friend who passed away. I sat here for nearly two hours w/ this intense focus and trying to put my feelings into the right words and I'm even feeling proud of myself.
My cell phone is playing 'Somewhere Over The Rainbow' so someone is leaving a voice message or a text message.
Was it something I ate? No, haven't eaten yet. I didn't notice anything until I got up from writing and then I just felt better.
I'm sorry if I was just seeking attention. There is no way I would have thought that was what I was doing three hours ago. No way. I wouldn't do this to you guys. You're my best buds.
But I still have to re-read what you read because I didn't quite understand it.
Do I need you to explain it to me or should I try to focus better and then I'll figure it out. I'm too scared to let you tell me and too scared to try and figure it out myself. Maybe you could just give me a little clue and then I can figure it out, then we'll both feel good about ourselves, right?
I've been waiting on my skinny butt for pdoc to call and say 'okay let's try it', but it's still Thurs and he could call tomorrow re: Nardil.
Kath I'm sorry for saying so much if you're getting ready for bed or are gone somewhere or I'm interrupting you while you're settling in for the eve.
Pls let me hear from you in case I've said something wrong or done something wrong, when you can of course. You're too good a friend to say or do anything wrong to. (Doesn't look like I'm much of a writer here does it? But really, I put my mind to something I sent him a couple weeks ago and he complemented me and even said I should maybe write children's stories or poems. That complement pulled me right up and out of depression.
o____o
tks, and pls let me know what meant, oh, and, what you think of my 'revelation' here ...
5f
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