Posted by alesta on January 9, 2007, at 12:29:09
sometimes i think i am going to lose my d%mn mind.
i am learning not to be a doormat. slowly. i seeked counsel from someone on this (usually don't do that, so this is a major step for me) and came to the realization that i am being abused and don't have to take it..
and i am building a lot of anger. and if i meet one more narcissist i will SCREAM. i can't take it anymore sometimes. the world a hostile place. sometimes i feel like i am losing myself and fear i will become like them if i am around them long enough. it's scary (i am very empathetic and in danger of this maybe more than others because i get inside ppl's heads too easily...i say this only because i'm trying to be understood here guys..) i know this won't happen but anyway.
sometimes i just want to cry forever. people can be so cruel. a friend showed their true colors to me yesterday and it makes me so sad. at least i don't have baggage though. somehow i am able to not have that. weird. thanks for reading whoever you are.
please if anyone has any thoughts at all please reply. i could use a friend or some compassion. things are rough. i really could use a little feedback folks. some thoughts...i feel alone.