Posted by cloudydaze on June 27, 2006, at 18:28:07
In reply to Re: Need support/help/ideas/whatever » cloudydaze, posted by TexasChic on June 27, 2006, at 15:48:28
> You're making perfect sense and its clear that you're in a no win situation. Unless you think your mom would be open to going to couseling about this, you really need to get away from her or its going to make you crazy. There's no reason to doubt you're being a good mom, and the people that say stuff like that are doing so because of their own insecurities. Putting you down makes them feel better.
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> This is such a toxic environment for you and your daughter. Do you have a woman's center or shelter in your area? They can counsel you and help you get out on your own. It should be in the phonebook. You don't have to be abused to get help from them, although in reality, you are being verbally and mentally abused. You don't have to put up with it.
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> Can your Dad help you at all? Or is there help for single mothers at your college? There's places to get help for someone in your position, you just have to search them out.
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> I know the unknown is alot scarier than the present. But if you get out from under all that negativity, I think you will be surprised how much better you feel. You'll be saying, I can't believe I didn't do this sooner!
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> Keep in touch and let us know how you're doing. You deserve to be happy. Some of us just have to work harder for it than others.
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> -TYeah, i know i need to get out as soon as i can. Problem is, I just don't have the financial means necessary to do that! I will graduate college in a year, and if I want I job, I will have to move anyway - because there are no jobs for designers here, unless I want to work in a print shop, and I don't.
I just feel so trapped. I've felt this way for a long long time now. I can't get out, at least not now. I just wish I was able to feel some pleasure in life, but right now, I don't enjoy anything, and it's hard for me to live that way.
My mom just came home and made me feel guilty for being depressed! Usually the first thing that comes out of her mouth is negative (actually most of the things that come out of her mouth are negative)...
But right now my main problem is this funk that i'm in...I haven't had a really bad depressive episode in awhile, but apparently I am now. I'm thinking that's why I've lost the ability to enjoy pretty much ANYTHING...even things i used to enjoy. This is a problem. If it continues, I'll get worse and just become totally non-functional. I really really don't want to have to take medication again. I've been off meds for a year now, and i was doing fine.
Could it be that I'm just bored? Do people really get this depressed from boredom? I should have taken summer classes.
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