Posted by llrrrpp on June 18, 2006, at 7:50:26
In reply to Re: It's over, posted by Deneb on June 18, 2006, at 3:13:45
thanks for your support last night
i hope you didn't worry too much about me. it's no fun to worry at night. i worried all night too. but i'm still here. still alive. keep on trucking. woke up at 5:30am. argh.
i have very few emotions right now. i think i turned them off. i bet when i go back and read this thread, when i feel human again, i'll probably laugh and definitely cry. i don't know what to say.
i can't say i feel much better today, but at least i haven't broken any more teeth. i may have to initiate another countdown to bed time at some point. i promised i would stay safe, and i did. my fingers stayed on the keyboard, out of danger. i took my medicine and went to bed. that was my promise and i kept it.
I make the same promise today. no physical harm will be inflicted on myself. i will take my medicine and go to bed and stay safe there until i fall asleep. I did it yesterday. i can do it again.