Psycho-Babble Social | for general support | Framed
This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | List of forums | Search | FAQ

Re: sorry about that

Posted by alexandra_k on December 27, 2005, at 15:47:12

In reply to bah humbug, posted by alexandra_k on December 27, 2005, at 4:07:28

yeah. it just brings it all back
and brings new things along too
i remember when i went away for a few days (into hospital i think) and i came back to find carpet fleas hatching en masse and i didn't know what to do i was so upset... so i rang my father and he wasn't so bad... wanted to finish his dinner and watch the news while i sat out in the laundry (it was pouring with rain) but then he came over with a couple of flea bombs and we bombed the place...

my stepmother was having a fit about taking me back to their place afterwards... going on and on about getting fleas in their house... she was fully going to hose me down outside but my father said he didn't think that would be necessary...

(thats him sticking up for me)

i always tried to be nice to her to avoid the whole 'stepmother' saga. but the truth is she has done what she could to bring that on herself really. and she tells all their friends that that is MY doing (i know this because i get on with some of their mutual friends alright and they talk to me) but it isn't i have gone out of my way and she won't even try and meet me...

we went to the movies. i said i needed to sit not further back than half way (preferably round the middle) because without glasses i can't see the screen very well... and she informed me that everyone else would be sitting in the back row because that is where she always sits. i met some nice people standing in the line so i was just going to go off with them... but my step sister came to get me and said she would sit with me (she is lovely i have no problem with her) but round about then i really could have told parents to go f*ck themselves.

have already been informed about how much of the ornaments etc will be going to stepdaughter to 'keep them in the family' and when i do get any money off them i always have to ask (and i do this only when in dire need) but father is so oblivious he says things like 'we don't mind helping you out because we gave step-sister 6 times that amount just last week' and it has always been like that. i ask them when i need things like food (because of some mix up with welfare) or clothes on occasion (like school uniform) or school camp or activity fees and sh*t like that (so most of this when i was at high school). they never think to offer. i suppose they think i just manage to live off thin air. and, well, i suppose i did really. and occasionally... i suppose i still do.

i don't have a problem with stepsister

i have a problem with the wicked witch of the west (who is lovely to her own children don't get me wrong)

and my father the gutless wonder

the gutless wonder with the selective memory 'don't worry about which airport you go from of course i'll drive you i won't see you for ages'

then i guess there was a conversation with stepmother in there somewhere because now i get

'well if you are going from there i suppose you will be wanting money for the airport shuttle'

yeah thats right
i'm only going for 3-4 years
of course you don't want to see me to the airport

the trouble is...

i would prefer it if they weren't around...
but then...
my greatest fear is that that is how other people feel about me.

i hate them i hate them i hate them

and to make matters worse mother is throwing a fit i didn't spend christmas with her and now i have to spend a day with the comparatively crazy side of the family...

i'm sorry

i hate this

every f*cking year...

 

Thread

 

Post a new follow-up

Your message only Include above post


Notify the administrators

They will then review this post with the posting guidelines in mind.

To contact them about something other than this post, please use this form instead.

 

Start a new thread

 
Google
dr-bob.org www
Search options and examples
[amazon] for
in

This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | FAQ
Psycho-Babble Social | Framed

poster:alexandra_k thread:592374
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20051225/msgs/592512.html