Posted by Gabbix2 on December 27, 2005, at 23:56:11
In reply to Re: sorry about that, posted by alexandra_k on December 27, 2005, at 15:47:12
No Sorries! No SORRIES!
It's crap, and it makes you feel like s*it, and it's confusing, and no matter how old you are
it can still happen. I know there are a lot of people, and you will be one I'm sure, who will eventually be able to realize that it's their crap, and they are not a reflection of how other people feel. But damnit it hurts.
I'm older than you are and when I had to stay with my mom a couple of years ago, during an excruciating depression, and after fleeing my abusive boyfriend, she promised that she would stay with me no matter how long it took for me to get better.
She invited *me* to stay.
The day I got out of the hospital psych ward, after being at her house for four weeks, and in the ward for a couple of days, she picked me up and told me she preferred being alone and that I had to find somewhere else to go. I never acted terrible or anything, all I did was sleep and cry (in my room)
I still sting from that. It sucks Alex.
When I found a place to stay, I was literally afraid to come out of my room, or make any noise.
I wanted to be invisible because I thought everyone must feel like her
I didn't mean to make that about me at all, I was just sort of trying to let you know that I know how deeply it can affect you, and you *need* to talk about it to get perspective from people who aren't them. I think many of us here can relate.
And I will definitely miss you when you are away from Babble.