Posted by TexasChic on November 12, 2005, at 21:16:25
Friday I got so-o-o fed up with being taken for granted by people at work. The people who sit next to me talk all day. This includes 'cute boy' (the young guy I have a secret crush on). But I can never quite hear what they're saying. And when I try to say something, they're so intent on their conversation that they don't hear me. I feel like I'm invisible. This has been bugging me for a while. I even talked to one of them about how I try to talk to them and they can't hear me. I could tell she really did feel bad, but it didn't change anything. Its obviously not intentional, but its getting pretty d@mned annoying.
Now this doesn't include the three people who are the core of my new group of friends (they sit on the other side of the room). They always make me feel wanted and like I'm part of the group. I guess this is kind of a sub-group of people who occasionally hang out with us.
Anyway, Friday at lunch they all jumped up and went out to eat. We do this occasionally, but I'm usually included. I was just left sitting there going, 'where'd everbody go?' I don't seem to register on the radar or something. This type of thing is something I've been slowly getting madder and madder at 'cute boy' about (although he's totally different outside of work, which just confuses me). By now he's hung out with me long enough that rationally, he should 'at least' tell me thery're going out for lunch, if not a 'Hey, come to lunch with us!'
So I finally got pissed, and just skipped out on bowling that afternoon without a word to anyone. I know, 'that'll show 'em!' Ha, ha. It's just that bowling is a regular thing I do with 'cute boy' (and a few others), and neither of us have ever missed. And last time we had such a great time! I guess the final straw was when I heard that the other people in the group who ignore me were going (they usually don't). So all I could think was, do I really want to go out with the same people who've been driving me crazy, just so they can do it some more? That decided it for me.
I know its stupid, they probably won't think anything about it. But I just wanted once for me to not 'just be there', dependable T. Oh well, it made me feel better even if they don't notice. I guess I'll see the reaction, or lack there of, on Monday. (I've so-o-o got to get a life outside of work).
-T
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