Posted by JenStar on May 28, 2005, at 18:42:07
In reply to Re: I feel like doing a bad bad thing *trigger*, posted by Susan47 on May 28, 2005, at 0:36:15
Deneb,
I have to agree that you do seem to get some enjoyment from the attention, maybe from having the people here care for you and offer lots of advice? I'm not saying that's bad at all. We DO care and we want to help you! If the attention helps you, I'm glad. :) All of us need attention from time to time, and if we can help make you feel better, I'm glad to do it. I'm just concerned that our help here is not enough, and that you need professional help too, to get you thru the rough patches.It seems that sometimes you do go into a "state" (I don't really know what to call it) where your posts are first depressed and sad, then action-driven and kind of high on life but also very disregarding of the sanctity of your life. I don't know what your diagnosis is or was, but it does seem to me, from what I can glean from your posts, that you're entering that sort of state where you lose a bit of touch with reality.
It sounds like you're under stress: You're at home all day with mom & cousins, you're starting a job, you feel you can't talk honestly to your family. You mentioned some cultural issues before. I understand if you don't want to share more about that, but I'm really sorry if you can't discuss mental issues with your mom. Is there an issue where your family (you feel) might not respect you, or might not understand about mental illness? If so, I'm very very sorry.
I like you from your posts, and I want you to feel better. Please take care of yourself. If you're a minor or a youth, there are still laws that protect your mental health status. Many of us here take meds to help stabilize our moods, and many of us benefit greatly from them. I am one who benefits from meds! Please don't be afraid to try or take them. Usually they help quite a bit. These are the prescribed meds, I mean, the ones that a doctor orders. Taking "unofficial" meds esp. in high doses is dangerous and will end up hurting you.
please be nice to yourself!
JenStar
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