Posted by alexandra_k on May 26, 2005, at 21:13:33
In reply to I feel like doing a bad bad thing *trigger*, posted by Deneb on May 26, 2005, at 20:07:27
I think...
I get what you mean.
Because you don't really care.
You don't really care if you live or die
Part of you wants to live
But part of you wants to die
So why not fool around and leave it in the hands of the fates
And if it is meant to be then it will happen...That was my thinking for a while.
I would say...
That you need to reflect on the worst case scenario.
The worst case isn't death
It isn't life
Its having to live with some kind of self imposed disability that you got in fooling around.
For someone (probably your mother) to have to look after you because of your self inflicted disability.You could get kidney failure.
Theres lots that could happen.
With hanging there is the possibility of brain damage.
I jumped.
Shattered my feet.
I live with the pain of that now.
Its only been since then that I've snapped out of that mindset
Of playing around with pills.It doesn't occur to me anymore...
But I wish I could have snapped out of it by imagining one of those worst cases
Rather than having to live it...
poster:alexandra_k
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