Posted by verne on November 12, 2004, at 7:03:01
In reply to Are you Excited? I am!, posted by Susan47 on November 11, 2004, at 22:42:09
Susan,
Looking for long lost friends is exhilarating - like skydiving without leaving home.
The search awakened alot of emotions and is somewhat painful. When I wrote the email to her, it took me back - and forward.
I realized I might have to travel for a visit if it worked out. I haven't been out of state for ten years. I used to travel alot but my wagons stopped moving and formed a tight circle years ago.
I think I'll put the search on the back-burner and try to be more in the moment and appreciate where I'm at. I can be very driven and something like a search for a lost friend can consume me. I can't count the times I've been eaten up and spit out by a cause.
I have one gear, one speed: runaway train. My only brake is the mixed metaphor. The only way to stop a runaway train is to distract it.
I see the doctor this morning and can't call the bank about the credit card fraud until after the appointment. Not good for the blood pressure. Need to meditate, do the breathing exercises, take a long walk instead of worrying over this like a dog with a new chew toy.
verne
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