Posted by verne on November 11, 2004, at 0:04:16
Since my daughter left the nest a couple years ago I've been trying to locate a former girlfriend (25 years ago), and after much searching, found her email address but not her physical address or phone number. I know the city but she has an unlisted number.
Anyway, I'm almost certain she's not married (still using her last name, and besides, she was the independent, sisterhood is powerful, feminist type and didn't seem interested in raising a family).
I think we really connected then and may even more so now. But I'm afraid to email her or dig further for her address/phone # and even more afraid to contact her by any means.
I have too much social anxiety to call. I start sounding like a croaking frog when I'm nervous. I would have to drink and get benzoed-up both. I'm afraid to email her because she'll wonder how I got ahold of her email address. I would probably freeze up just trying to exchange emails if I got that far.
But first I want to wait until I lose 25 pounds, grow a brain, read all the books I only talked about reading, get a career, write several books, get a title, become knighted, sainted, or dewey-decimalized, invent, discover, or find something, become a spiritual master or famed hedonist, climb the usual famous mountains, make a fortune, give away a fortune, while, at the same time, remaining unassuming, humble, and selfless.
This is my dilemna.
verne
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