Posted by B2Chica on September 22, 2004, at 10:17:55
In reply to Re: attempt S.... » B2Chica, posted by AuntieMel on September 21, 2004, at 14:26:53
believe me, almost all i could muster on monday were swear words and almost tears (i wouldn't let him have those though!)
anyway, my boss made it VERY clear (almost guilt ridden) that He was just a great boss cuz he bent over backwards this whole time and that he hired me to get work done and the work hasn't been getting done, also that he hired me cuz i multitasked very well and i don't anymore. Everything he said was making it sound like a "be prepared if one more incident then you're out". now he never SAID that, but it was certainly implied, knowing him he could have just been saying that as an intimidation tactic-he's used to doing that. funny thing is even though he's 6'4" and about 61 he's used to being a very "powerful, intimidating man...ha, if he had any ideas how i grew up, man he's NOTHING...ha!(she laughs loudly at that pathetic attempt to intimidate).and since he's out of the building for the rest of the week i'll be popping in. although i think i've got some major allergy thing going on and i'm miserable so i think i'm going to head back home pretty soon. just feel like cr&p.
and NOONE can take away my babble friends, they just have NO idea how important you'all are. they have no idea what's really going on (other personal issues) and i can talk about or sort of talk about those here...No Where Else! So i just knod my head and say "yes (name here) i'm not on the internet, i'm not on babble, thanks for your concern."
i need to save some money and quick cuz i just need to get a computer at home and internet access. "gee, how to make a quick buck??"anyway, illegal or not i can't really do anything right now. just sit and wait. I told my friends here (all 2 of them) that i am seriously considering taking a leave of absense like of a couple months. Maybe once i get set up with new T and get into sessions, the toll those may take on me compounded by work and possible new medication runs i just don't want to go back to the hospital again and i DON'T want to end up in the "institute" that they wanted to lock me up in. That just scares the spirit right out of me.
but that one friend suggested talking to human resources regarding such a leave and that they knew it could be done and with no problem since i do have several Dr.'s Dx and (now) two hospitalizations under my belt.
Anyway. i'm tired, might go home soon.OH!!! (possible trigger)
for those that SI i got this book at barnes&noble called "cutting" author is Steven Levenkron. it is a really educational/psychological viewed look into reason and understandings behind SI and a few case histories. I'll tell you, i LOVE the case histories, there are actually two that...MAN, it was like they were talking about me. anyway, it's just a very accepting and understanding book-not judging and not too indepth into one persons issues to where it is terribly triggering, though please read with caution and care.
But i'm half way through this and have really enjoyed the insight.
heck at this point i feel like i've been my own T for the last few months and especially now.ok, gotta run.
LOVE YOU ALL.
B2c.
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