Posted by Angel Girl on June 16, 2004, at 7:28:49
In reply to Re: just an angsty lonely rant (long) » Angel Girl, posted by ghost on June 15, 2004, at 12:04:09
ghost
I understand your position on not wanting to change your name. I feel the same way. Besides if you have different names for all the places you go on the net, it would be pretty hard to keep track of it all. I'm glad it doesn't bother you too much that she'll be able to come here and read your inner most thoughts. We can only pray that she has better ways of spending her time than to look up a previous bf's posts on a msg board.
Why do you fear an increase in your dosage if it could make you feel better?
That's so sweet of you to say that you like me when you barely even know me. I'm more used to hearing criticism and people telling me what I'm doing wrong all the time. I feel like I can't do anything right. Basically, I think the *normal* world is just sick of me and my irrational and paranoid thoughts. Actually, I'm sure you'd feel the same way as everybody else if you *really* got to know me. I don't seem to be able to maintain any kind of relationship anymore.
You got a point about therapy and the catch 22 scenerio. I'd like to say otherwise, but I'd be lying if I did, but I don't have much hope in ever being *normal* anyway.
I know what you mean about higher standards for yourself. I'm the same way.
I totally agree with you on missing the manic episodes. I do too and I'd have to say that those are the times that I could honestly say that I felt any kind of joy. Now that they're gone, so is the joy and happiness. Only sadness remains.Thanks for the cyber hugs. I really needed them too. I've been having a very rough week.
AG
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