Posted by Scott in Vermont on April 23, 2004, at 14:48:03
In reply to On the other side...... » Scott in Vermont, posted by Tootercat on April 23, 2004, at 13:12:03
To be honest, I'm not really sure. She has changed her reasons many times in the last few months, but the recurring themes are- she is divorcing me because she is "burned out", because of 10 years of me not being "perfect", 8 years of being a reluctant mother, and a lifetime of disappointments all coming to a head in her mid-30's crisis.
I wish that she would get help. This "thing" she is now is not the person I used to know... but perhaps this is who she has always been inside and everything else was the facade. I don't know. And I wish I didn't care. I want to move on past this. I cannot try again with her; she has hurt me too deeply and too often. All I want now is to make sure she doesn't spread her disease of spiteful indifference to the children.
I wanted us to be a family together. That simply is not going to happen. After 5 ˝ months, I finally gave up. Now my focus for the children is figuring out how to provide as much of a “family” for the children as is possible. I know I cannot create a “bubble” for the children, and I never would want to if I could. But I do want to lessen the blow of harsh reality if I can, and ensure that they always know they have a place for love, safely, and acceptance wherever I am.
I don't know if sharing email here is ok, but you can email me at scottinvt@hotmail.com
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