Posted by Ilene on April 17, 2004, at 20:35:02
In reply to Dear diary April 16, posted by Ilene on April 16, 2004, at 21:27:53
My period started. Makes me feel more normal. Didn't get it last month.
It was hot today! Over 80 degrees. This is the transition from cool spring to hot summer typical of this climate: one day you are wearing a turtleneck and a wool sweater, two days later you are wearing a tank top. I really prefer the in-between days. We just never get them. Glad I'm moving to a more temperate climate.
Like yesterday, today had its good points and bad points.
I slept late. I had to get up and disable the smoke detector in the middle of the night because my oven was cleaning itself. I woke up to a funny-smelling kitchen and an oven coated with gray crud.
I felt crappy and anxious, so I took some Klonopin for the first time in several weeks. Either it worked like a charm, or I got so involved in listening to a radio special about Wagner's Ring cycle that I felt loads better. The feeling is distant now...I did okay until about 5:00, when I came back from getting my son from his soccer game. Then I felt tired and depressed. Convinced myself to lie down w/ my feet up--it helped a bit.
I have to leave at about 10:15 to pick up my husband from the airport. I'm all worried and feeling guilty because I didn't clean up the office, and he's going to need it, and the bedroom is messy. The rest of the house is a little better than usual--not saying much, I'm no one's housekeeper. I feel like I've been filing papers for hours and the pile doesn't get smaller.
My daughter didn't get into the college she visited last week. She was walking on air after the visit, she liked it so much, my husband said. Now there's no shoulder for her cry on for a week, as he is coming here. Just virtual shoulders. I don't like the idea of her being all alone for week.
We are IMing each other. Talking about shopping for a prom dress. Now subject has changed to old movies.
(There isn't anyone around here I'd call to go to an old movie with.)
Now I'm telling her about the birds and squirrels.
Now I have said goodbye, so I can finish this and change the sheets before I get my husband.
Thought for the day: How does one *feel* as if one has accomplished something? I can look at things I have done, but I usually feel 1) It was a dreadful experience and I wish I hadn't had to have done it; or 2) I've just got more of the same to do. (Okay, so that sentence wasn't quite grammatical.)