Posted by deirdrehbrt on February 25, 2004, at 15:11:52
In reply to Re: Sometimes I hate therapy. » deirdrehbrt, posted by Dinah on February 25, 2004, at 9:06:31
Hi everyone.
Today is still a bit rough, but I have lived through worse. Therapy is incredibly hard, but I know that I have many painful things to work through. I guess that all of this work is the tough part of dissociating... Evrything got packed away long ago and I never dealt with it then. Now, time catches up and if I don't want to be sick, I need to work through them now.
It hurts.
It hurts because I can't go to mommy or daddy. It hurts because I can't go back to my church. It hurts because I can't go to two of my three brothers, and the third couldn't really help.
Some things are good though. I have very good friends. I have my cat. I have bear and some friendly dolls.
My cat guards the bed, sleeping between me and the door to my room. She's ferrocious. She's strong and has sharp claws and doesn't show mercy. She likes my friends. I trust her.
She tells me what she wants... more food, fresh water, to play, to go out, She's very smart.
I finished watching Lawrence of Arabia yesterday. It seems incredible that there were actually men like that in the world. You look at them in awe. Men who would admit that they didn't want to fight, yet fought well. Men who admit that they were scared of doing something, but would do it anyway, because it needed to be done.
I suppose that there were still those, then, who would prey on children, but somehow I think that these other men, the good ones, wouldn't hesitate to come to the rescue of the children.
I think this ends the post.... I'm feeling a bit little right now, and need to get home......
Dee.
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