Posted by deirdrehbrt on February 24, 2004, at 18:27:07
Today was just one of those days. First, I forgot what time my appointment was, and I couldn't find the card. I went there before her first appointment and waited for her to show up. I was lucky...... I was her first appointment.
I've had a sort of rough week. Memories, chats with my alters... some of whom were a bit upset with me. Some sleepless nights. Some more memories.
Well, in therapy, we started discussing my week. As usual, I brought my journal, but there was one paragraph that I just couldn't read. My T asked if she could read it, and I let her. Right about then, I couldn't catch my breath, and she helped calm me down, but I still wasn't comfortable.
When the session finally ended, she made sure that I wasn't walking (I can't drive anyway), and let me go when she was satisfied.
I like living near public transportation, and took the bus home. I sat in the front so I wouldn't have to look at anyone.
Now, home, I worked on a project with my daughter, and I was completely exhausted. I'm trying to cook supper, but I think it's just too much work. Maybe I'll have cereal.
I've had sessions take alot from me, but this one surpasses all of the others. The strange thing is that I don't remember anything except that one bit of my journal that could have taken this much from me. Then again, I do dissociate, and things have happened in therapy that I didn't remember. I should ask next week.
I think it's time to take it easy. I think I'll watch some movies.
Dee.
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