Posted by Karen_kay on January 5, 2004, at 14:39:57
In reply to Still ranting, posted by socialdeviantjeff on January 5, 2004, at 14:21:35
OK, this one hit me hard. Maybe just a bit *too* close to home. Trying to find a way to put into words how to explain Karen. Jeff, Karen looks very normal. Karen has the memory of a slug (possibly worse) so Karen studies SO hard and endlessly so that she can keep her grades up to *APPEAR* normal. Karen makes monthly appoinments at the beauty salon, so her hair can be perfect, so she *APPEARS* normal. Karen gets her nails done so she can *APPEAR* normal. Karen goes shopping often and spends money on clothes that she really shouldn't so that she can *APPEAR* normal. Karen drives a nice car and begs her boyfriend to buy her diamonds so that she can *APPEAR* normal. Jeff, Karen goes to GREAT lengths to *APPEAR* normal. Karen cleans her house OBSESSIVELY. Never mind that noone really comes over. It's to assure herself that she IS NORMAL. That she is keeping it together. When in fact she's falling apart. The moral of the story is that Jeff, even the most NORMAL looking people have problems too. Just because we hide it, and hide it well in fact, doesn't mean it's not there. It's just that some of us have gotten darn good at covering things up and hiding things. That's the only buffer and security that we have. I think it's even braver to be able to face the fact that you aren't hiding behind your problems :) Sorry, If I didn't help you, but just wanted to let you know that just because some people *appear* to look like they have it togethr doesn't mean it's not a front! Trust me, I'm hurting just as much as the next person. I jsut hide behindt he makeup and false smiles...
poster:Karen_kay
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