Posted by 8 Miles on December 18, 2003, at 19:43:27
In reply to Had a *BAD* crisis (WARNING-this is graphic), posted by socialdeviantjeff on December 18, 2003, at 2:02:21
Well Jeff..........
Obviously, there are a lot of separate issues that you are having to deal with at the same time. It would be helpful, if you feel comfortable, to let us know what meds you are taking, your DX, and if you ARE currently seeing a counselor? (oh, and how old are you?).I have "dealt" with a daughter (20) who sometimes makes me ill by her behaviour. Now, I KNOW what's wrong with me, and I get medical and counselling treatment. I DO know from my own personal experience from living at my parent's house for about 2 years after getting out of college, that there are CLEARLY sometimes when, no matter what, they cannot understand you, and you cannot understand WHY. As to your desire for self-inflicting pain, that is an issue that you must come to deal with ( I know that is not as easy as it sounds). However, I do know that with the right meds (and yes, a Pdoc may have to play with many combinations of meds until he finds the right "cocktail" for you. This alone, can be very frustrating. This too is where the counselor comes in handy. They will listen to you objectively, and help you realize who you are and why. Not knowing something that basic makes one lose hope, and makes the consideration of death as the only way out of the pain, a viable consideration. Trust me, it is not, especially if you are young. Believe me, I have been very close to that end, sometimes I would think while driving "well, what if I slammed into that concrete piling at 100 mph?" You know why I can't do it? I think it would be a selfish thing to do to my family. Some people see it as a way to "get even" with them. NO one wins in any scenario. 6 months down the road, your ENTIRE life may be a polar opposite to where you are now. You can never lose hope, you can never let yourself listen to the demons in your head. It just doesn't play out. I have had close friends die from their own actions. And always it's "WHY? I could have helped! It didn't have to end this way, WHY?" It's something that cannot be undone. God, who knows what you may become? I know this sounds "canned" but YOU might be that one person that saves a lot of people. I have. Tell me what I can do to help you.
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