Posted by kara lynne on November 23, 2003, at 14:07:38
In reply to Re: Up at 5AM » JimD, posted by sienna on November 23, 2003, at 11:50:06
Hi Jim,
I guess that's what I'm trying to do, put space between me and the ex. For me I don't see how there will be any other way to get on with my life. I understand when you say you have never been so sad, but staying attached means staying attached to all the conflict and sorrow as well. I have no answers. I'm not doing well after almost six months. I feel like I should be much better than I am right now, but maybe it's worse because of all the expectations around the holidays.Last night I kept picturing him with someone else and that killed me. But I had to talk myself out of calling him...to what, hear him confirm it? Deny it? Lie about it? Either way it's a lose lose.
I wasn't happy when I was with him. I don't know why it's this hard to be without him.
Good luck. If I was your mother (and we got along) I would tell you to stop messing around with him and run as fast and far as you could. Best friendships shouldn't hurt you.
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