Posted by Dinah on October 19, 2003, at 9:18:34
In reply to Re: Why is it we're supposed to want to live? » Dinah, posted by deirdrehbrt on October 18, 2003, at 16:33:55
I've told my husband I don't like the idea, and I'll probably tell my therapist too. But I doubt I'll mention suicide.
I may be able to say online that there are certain things that would be more than I can bear, but I don't even think online I could say that if one of them had happened.
And in person I don't even think I could say it in a vague future context. Not with my therapist even, and certainly not with my husband.
Bad memories, I guess, of threatening suicide as a preteen and the reactions I got. I vowed never to threaten again.
The closest I can come in real life is to talk about it in some odd third person way. "I keep getting these urges to kill myself and they are disturbing to me. Oh no. I have no intention of acting on them, but they are still frightening to me, because I'm afraid my resolve will slip for a moment." That sort of thing.
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