Posted by Dinah on October 18, 2003, at 11:43:15
In reply to Re: Why is it we're supposed to want to live? » Dinah, posted by madwand on October 18, 2003, at 9:27:36
Ach, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make it sound that bad. He knew that the things that he were saying were upsetting to me, but he didn't know (and won't know) that I don't think I could live with those changes. But it's just talk, and part of why I was angry is that it's not likely to come about so I feel like he's just trying to punish me. But that's what my dad did all the time, so maybe I'm blaming my husband for something he didn't mean to do.
And yes, I suppose I know my son wouldn't be better off if I killed myself. I don't suppose any child would be, no matter what kind of parent. And he does love me and seems to like me fine as a mom. I guess it's just the negative stuff that comes with the down phases.
It'll pass. It always does.
Again, sorry for making it sound so morbid. :(
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