Posted by lil' jimi on August 1, 2003, at 3:59:23
In reply to re: Here we are! » lil' jimi, posted by yesac on July 31, 2003, at 16:41:10
hi yesac!
> Oh, I'm certainly not trying to say that I always have a totally great time on vacations. No, I can't leave it all behind either. Not at all. I can't escape myself, unfortunately. But it can be nice just to get away from the routine and my stressors at home. A lot of the time, though, I do feel rather depressed and stressed during my vacations, but I don't want to let that stop me from trying to see new things and go to interesting places.
>besides the stress of vacations, i'll add to it the stress of dragging the stress from home with me ... ... but i think part of it is the stress generated by the others on vacation .. .... ... you definitely are better at it than i am .... 20 or more years ago i'd go traveling with my friends and we all had great times ... now i feel like my responsibilities make me want to straighten out the house, get that mortgage, choose that health insurance ... and take a BIG NAP ...
> > would this be time for you to adjust your med(s)?
>
> I've been in the process of adjusting my meds for several months now. Haven't ever really found a good regimen. So I just keep trying new and different things. You can't imagine how much I want something to work!! Well, maybe you can. The mild ups and downs are fairly usual for me. But this week I haven't felt too down much, but today for some reason has been really irratic and I keep feeling these very mild mood swings. Like, I periodically feel just a bit like I want to cry, but I feel somewhat wired as well.
>
well, you sound pretty good ... must be working .. . ... (?)> > i have lost track of your regimen: sx, dx, tx, rx?
>
> ME:
> > sx: depressed, some ADD symptoms, some social phob symptoms
> > dx: depression, officially
> > tx: right now - parnate, lamictal, just started neurontin
> > rx: Rx? Does that mean dose? Well, if it does... P-60mg, L- 200mg, N-600mg
>
> Oh, well, I guess it's probably not likely that 4.5 year olds would want to spend their time on PB! Maybe they'd rather play with Daddy or something. Kids - what are you gonna do?
>the little guy is such a powerful antidepressant ... once he saw me sad ... told me i needed a band-aid ... he put one on me ... and i was all better ... and he likes his Rescue Heroes ... he plays their computer game, sometimes, beside me while i'm pB-ing on the other computer ... i have my dad's dell next to my imac... ...
> > ... but if you needed anything, just post to me and i'll get back to you as soon as is comfortable ... ... it would make me feel better if i felt you would give me a shout whenever you felt like it ... please?
>
> Okay. Sounds good.
>
> > so, is your vacation/travel companion like a significant-other type, or more like a roommamte type?
>
> Neither - she is my best friend. But, my goodness, we do have issues. I even feel a bit hesitant to travel with her right now. We have definitely had some really great times in the past, traveling and otherwise. And I love her... but, lately she's gotten a bit annoying to me for various reasons... We don't live near each other either, so we don't see that much of each other, not like in college.
>
> Talk to you soon, I hope!i used to ride with companions and often alone, by motorcycle(s) out to california .. .. to camp out on Mt. Shasta ... .... for weeks, in tents ... climbed to the summit once ... it was 30 years ago now ... ... i hope you can have that kind of fun and adventure with your friend ...
take care,
~ jim
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