Posted by kara lynne on July 4, 2003, at 18:00:27
I'm missing my ex badly. It's those stupid things that punctuate a relationship--where I was last 4th of July with him, etc.etc.
It's night, I miss him. It's morning, I miss him. It's dinnertime, I miss him. Maybe it was enough--to have someone to hang out with now and then. Someone to hold my hand and put my arm around.
Then again, we're talking about a virtually always absent man, a virtually sexless relationship. A man that could call me a pig and tell me to take my things and get out at 1am in the morning.
But maybe that could just go away. I wish it could just go away and I could have someone to love. He used to meow. That was the best thing we had together. Meowing.
I just may have to face being alone forever. I was alone a long time before he came along. Now I am just older and not as marketable. I hate to say it, but I think it's just the way it is. Should I have stayed with him? So I could have someone with me on this holiday I hate?
poster:kara lynne
thread:239290
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