Posted by Tabitha on July 5, 2003, at 18:54:03
In reply to Gabbi, it's Sadder Day, posted by kara lynne on July 5, 2003, at 1:27:24
Kara lynn, as you may have noticed I went back to my guy, thinking the companionship and physical contact were worth putting up with all the rest.. here it is day 2 and already I'm having doubts again. Once he's there all I can see are his flaws and things he lacks, then once he's gone all I see is how much we had.. we re-unite, we're perfectly nice to each other for about one day, then the old pattern starts up again. All I can think today is what am I doing with this guy who's down to his last hundred dollars, hasn't been to a dentist in ten years, and gets into stupid arguments about new age principles and jesus at a party with an academic, can't stand for me to point out anything about him at all without getting defensive and taking it as an insult, leaving me confused as to whether I really was trying to insult him or not, and I spend the day anxious and wondering if I've made a mistake out of loneliness. Yes it was nice having someone to be with on july 4th... but is it worth choosing the wrong guy? Short term comfort, long term grief.
If you can get through the breakup grief, surely your next catch will be an improvement. Keep taking care of yourself and be strong.
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