Posted by Snoozy on June 21, 2003, at 23:20:28
In reply to Re: About waiting till your 50, posted by shar on June 19, 2003, at 17:47:49
I'm wondering about the experiences of others who have lived with suicidal thoughts for 10, 20 or more years. I started feeling the desire to not exist in childhood. And I think I have subconsciously since then expected that I would kill myself within the next few years. I don't mean that I had a plan or anything, but more as a comfort - I'm not going to have to go on like this for a long time. I suppose in a way this makes sense as a coping mechanism. I can be feeling ok - not good, but ok. But if I think that I'm going to go on pretty much like this for another 10 years, that's just unbearably depressing. One day at a time, I guess.
Has anyone else had similar thoughts/feelings?
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