Posted by shar on June 20, 2003, at 11:37:04
In reply to Re: About waiting till your 50 » shar, posted by OddipusRex on June 19, 2003, at 19:38:39
Why, thank you, OR! I hope you have a less-than-grim day as well.
xoxo
Shar
> Oh I understood you very well after I read your first explanation. I just don't agree with you. And you don't agree with me. That's okay. Please don't be disappointed by thinking you'd accidentally posted something hopeful.Tis not so!!! And have a slightly less grim day if possible which it's probably not :)
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