Posted by kara lynne on April 29, 2003, at 13:10:35
contacted me yesterday, trying to get me involved in some party not to take place for over a year, in honor of our parents 50th wedding anniversary. He's made a reservation which includes my drug addicted boyfriend who offered me $1400 (severence pay?) the other day to help me move out. My brother knows none of this; I don't tell him anything because he just loves me to be pitiful. I didn't answer his call, but I had to seriously fight the desire to call back and say that I might be dead next year and can't possibly committ to such a thing.
We're supposed to have some circus parade celebrating my parent's long and lovely marriage and all the joy it has produced. They have three grown children--the eldest son still living at home with a shred of a life, one tormentedly depressed, barely managing daughter, and the middle son, a desperate narcissist who must look like he's managing splendidly at all costs. They have no grandchildren, and it's looking like they never will.
Oh yay. Let's party.
And yet again, I can do nothing else because what a terrible, selfish daughter I would be otherwise.
No one has any interest in the real person.My boyfriend is leaving to go "take care of his problem" tomorrow. He'll go on a little road trip, take a vacation, start fresh, howsa bout it?
My cat has been following me around the house for the past five hours, whimpering and whining--almost howling. She won't let up and there's nothing I can do to make her feel better. She's at my heel every move I make. It's making me think something terrible is going to happen.
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thread:223177
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