Posted by likelife on April 29, 2003, at 0:23:47
In reply to Re: I wonder.... Mair and » Dinah, posted by mair on April 28, 2003, at 12:21:36
> I vascillate between feeling that trying to unearth a tangible cause is a fruitless task, and yet also feeling incredibly guilty that there are no obvious explanations for my history of depression.
Mair-
I've had these exact same feelings, though they torment me much less now than before. I think I largely agree with your therapist, that a mismatch can cause such things, but I also have come to realize that I have rationalized a lot of my family's behavior, that, though it is not pathological or abusive per se, in accumulated form, became quite stressful. I never wanted for anything material, but felt like I was constantly wanting in an emotional sense...and it's taken its toll. So, yes, I still tend to berate myself occasionally for not being "justified" in having whatever feelings I may have, but it's decreasing little by little. Causes for depression don't have to be as linear as they are when laid out in a therapist's textbook.
Thank you for sharing this--and no, you don't need a cause to feel as you do (and most likely, you can change the feelings without knowing fully about the cause).
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