Posted by shar on April 25, 2003, at 21:10:15
In reply to Will it really get better???, posted by mmcasey on April 24, 2003, at 15:16:47
mm,
Well, I used to have to answer this one yes, because I knew someone who got better, really better, like happy. However, I can now add my own 2 cents, which is yes and no.I was a true believer that mine would not get better, ever, that I'd done the therapy and meds (for some 25 years total) and I was 50 (see suicidal ideation thread you started) and I was ready to bid adieu to living. Only, I had agreed with my therapist that I would not do any bidding adieu for one year as I joined a group she ran. We had great big fights about it.
That year was up January 31st, 2003. Obviously, I'm still here. What happened was NOT that I got better, but that life got better. My horizon shifted just enough...just enough...to make a difference. That was about December of 2002.
I won't go into vast detail, but I did want to say yes and no. You may never be your old self (if you had a happy old self that you remember), and you may not leave depression behind (I still deal with it), but I can attest to the fact that life may bring something your way that will change your horizon just enough to make it worthwhile to go on another day.
Good luck,
Shar> I always hear that... "It will get better", "it's only temporary",
> "you have to be patient"....blah blah blah....
> But WILL IT REALLY GET BETTER? It never has gotten better
> for me. It has improved somewhat from time to time, but
> for years I can not say that I've truly felt happy or
> okay. No amount of medication or therapy has helped me
> ENOUGH. They've helped - therapy more than medication -
> but my basic deep down misery has never gone away. I
> don't know. I just don't know if I can believe that it
> will ever get better of if my whole life I will be fighting
> and struggling against this dark force within me.
poster:shar
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