Posted by leeran on April 21, 2003, at 13:43:20
In reply to Re: THANK YOU to everyone!, posted by noa on April 21, 2003, at 13:06:49
Noa,
First of all, I wanted to let you know that my thoughts/prayers are with you and your mother (and your dad and brother as well). My father had by-pass surgery a couple of years ago and I didn't know if I should go/when I should go/etc.
My mother kept telling me it would be a waste to come and just sit for hours in the hospital, then she said it would be silly to come while he was in therapy. Then, all of a sudden ("sudden" on my end - not hers, I'm sure) he seemed to take a real turn for the better.
It's so hard living away from parents when they are elderly. I'm an only child and I find myself constantly torn on this subject.
At least you now have a game plan and you're ready at a moment's notice, which must be a big relief!
You mentioned:
I can't decide if I'm starting to feel effects of the lowered effexor dose, or is it all the stress, etc.I have this anecdote to relay.
About a month ago (right after the war started) I had an appointment with my pdoc and told him I thought I was feeling depressed (and I was). He suggested Lexapro and I immediately abandoned my Wellbutrin (cold turkey) and the last month has been nothing short of hellish.
I realized just the other day (from something else someone said here on the boards) that I may have mistaken stress/sadness over the war (and a broken tooth) as the deepening (or return) of my depression.
When I read what you said about Effexor the same thought crossed my mind. You're under a lot of stress right now. Let's face it, bailing water out of a washing machine is enough to send the Good Humor man over the edge, but then you have the more important issues with your mother at play as well. And I don't know about you, but general unrest in the real world can leave me feeling a few octaves lower than "normal" (ahhhh, that dreaded word) as well (kind of a backdrop to my personal pain).
I wonder if AD's don't make us feel so much better (compared to the state we were in when we started them) that it ends up being more difficult to recognize the "normal" effects of stress. I know that I'm always so afraid of "slipping back" that I'm probably more sensitive to dark feelings (I call it my dark cloud) than I've ever been in the past.
Just thought I would pass all that along with my good wishes for you and your family. Sorry to go off a bit on a tangent!
Lee
P.S. In the end, it all comes out in the "wash." (Slap me for this bad pun but I couldn't resist and I thought it might give you a teeny grin on a soggy Monday)
"Go on and hit her! Slap her!" - Steel Magnolias
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