Posted by Dinah on April 5, 2003, at 19:17:09
In reply to Re: I'm depressed., posted by noa on April 5, 2003, at 17:36:30
Naw can't do it. It just makes me laugh. :)
I'm not actually angry with my therapist, and certainly not with the replies to my posts. As luck would have it, my therapist managed to wrap me with a warm fluffy blanket of security before he left. He backed off a circular argument we have sometimes, and remembered that we mean different things by the same words. He even joked about my need for security in such a way that made me feel like he didn't mind. I left on a very good note, which made the absence much easier to take.
But the thing I'm angry about is the Risperdal. I was in early meltdown a week or two ago, and decided to take the Risperdal. It worked wonderfully as it has a time or two before. And I felt soooo good that there was something I could take that would stop these pernicious meltdowns, which usually last at least days if not longer. And then one stupid incident of tongue thrusting, and I'm afraid to take it any longer. And my husband is adamant that I don't take it. He says my meltdowns are temporary and that I'll get over them, but he doesn't want me chancing permanent side effects. And no other class of meds has ever had any real effect on the meltdowns, although klonopin helps me a bit.
And risperdal was definitely part of my safety net for disaster, and I guess it still is that.
I just feel like something was snatched away from me, and I'm as mad as a two year old about it. Or maybe I'm just sad.
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