Posted by Alii on February 7, 2003, at 2:10:34
In reply to Re: Heartache and depression, posted by lostsailor on February 6, 2003, at 11:35:34
> Do all heartaches really heal or just hidden when new Love comes along and the problems of the past can be used for selection and correction in the future.
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> Atlas had it tough, but sing a song of youth and imagine having the whole wide world in your/his HANDS. Now that's hard!!
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> Alli, I've been --still am, in a way--in the same spot and filed the letter for future reference. If you keep it around and it bothers you burn it!! It was summed up well once “that thoughts make great letters, and that letters make for great spoken words and spoken words can lead to good deeds…” Paper is a great tool for writing but should never be used to shatter matters like this. He was lame for that I know, for I hate "paper" too. Post back to us.
> Good luck.
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> ~TonyTony,
I'll probably have a pang of regret at some point in the future but for now I have all his written words from over the six years in a box and I will be placing this box within another box of his stuff he's coming by to get this weekend.
He'll then have his words to do with as he pleases. The love letters. The cards. The letters of frustration. And that final crappy poorly written piece of crud that the coward pawned off on me two weeks ago.
He can choose what he wants to do with HIS written words.
~Alii
P.S. Right now the only thing keeping me going is knowing ma will be here in five days. She's flying in to help me sort out this "snowglobe" time where I can't even see straight to figure out what's next. I've set simple goals and have enough basic shit to keep me busy through the week but I am from an area where my peers are at very different places than where I'm at. I fight hard not to compare but when I can barely even afford to purchase my medication each month I tend to wonder just how the hell I'm ever supposed to make do on this planet. I wake up each day convinced that I do not belong. Such distortion to fight all the time. It is exhausting.
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