Posted by IsoM on November 12, 2002, at 18:26:55
In reply to I hate myself, posted by BeardedLady on November 12, 2002, at 6:03:44
Beardy, do you think you may be sleeping poorly 'cause something's stewing around in your subconscience, skewering your sleep? At times, for me, it doesn't even need to be much but if something's nagging away in my mind, I can't sleep proper. I really need to be completely at peace with myself to sleep good. If my sleep goes off for more than a night, it's a barometer for me that something needs resolving. It can be anything as small as paying a bill that there's no money for right then to doing crappy on a test I thought I'd ace.
So don't berate yourself. Lack of sleep compounded by other stresses of normal life can make our views & judgement really off from how we would normally view life. And your message to Roman wasn't a whine to me. Not everyone can force themselves to smile & laugh, & then feel better, but for some of us, it does work. It does for me.
I had a lousy migraine for a couple of days & at the end of the first day, I noticed my mood was bleak, dark, & edgey - not like me. It occurred to me that I'd gone around all day with a frown etched on my forehead because of the pain that wouldn't leave (even with strong meds). That frown had changed my mood - headaches by themselves don't do that. I had to lay down with a warm cloth around my forehead & temples to loosen the tight, sore muscles.
And then yesterday, no matter what, I was tired. The day looked so dreary but my mood was good & I got busy cooking up a storm of stews, soups, apple crisps, etc. But whenever I stopped, I'd want to sleep. I finally thought if I took an extra Dexedrine & laid under my SAD light, I'd perk up. But no, even with the bright light less than a foot from my face, the Dex in me, my cat stretched across my chest, & the washing machine going (LOUD! - son washing clothes), I fell asleep. How pathetic.
I know - you wish you could fall asleep like that, but for me, I hate the amount I sleep in winter. Cross a giant slug with a hibernating bear & that's me in winter. Ulysses' Sirens had nothing compared to the allure of my bed & soft pillows & quilt.
How about renting a silly, happy movie that you can watch with your daughter? Make caramel popcorn & a jug of orange juice & curl up together to watch it & laugh. Hug her lots too. Really - the physcial contact is so healing & so is laughter.
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