Posted by Penny on June 11, 2002, at 7:43:02
In reply to AAargh, horrible pit, moodswing?, posted by tabitha on June 11, 2002, at 5:09:44
>My hypersocial behavior just seems embarassing. How could I be fooled AGAIN? Having thought it was some real happiness makes the evaporation unbearable.
Ah...I know what you mean. My dx is not bpII, but mood disorders - not otherwise specified, which means I too have ups and downs, though my ups don't usually quite qualify for hypomania...
But, I know what you mean. Was going through a mildly hypomanic episode just recently and feeling 'great' and was afraid it would go away, but my pdoc said to enjoy it. And I did...and then it went away. Just went through another 'up' moment just before my job interview on Friday, but by Friday night was already heading downhill again. And I tried just 'accepting' the good feelings, not questioning them, etc. But it didn't last...
But I guess what I want to say to you is you do have to look at these brief moments of feeling good as what they are in the moment...you did feel happy. So what if it's labeled 'hypomania'? The label doesn't make the feelings any less real...
Wish I could give you some sage advice on how to find true happiness, but I'm looking for that myself, and feeling sucked into the pit. So know that I am thinking of you.
> Where's the comfort? Call up the doctor for an adjustment? That's not comforting. Just endure and wait for another change? That's not comforting. I'm tired of this stuff. It just feels unbearable.
I agree...unbearable is the perfect word. But, they tell me, it is bearable, it just hurts. Everyone on this board understands...we've all been there, and some of us (like me) are currently there. You're not alone...
Penny
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