Posted by Manda on May 5, 2002, at 20:05:59
In reply to Why am I so alone?, posted by Katt on May 5, 2002, at 17:15:03
Katt,
I know how alone you must be feeling right now, but you have to hang on. It WILL get better. You know, people have been telling me that almost daily for the last couple of months, and I didn't believe it until a few days ago? (I got on a new AD.) So, I know how unbelievable that sounds, and I know that you hurt so much right now that you really wish that it was all over. But don't give up!
You never know what tomorrow will bring. You might wake up tomorrow morning and feel happy again. Or the next day. Again, I know that's hard to believe, but it happened to me last week. Out of the blue, the day before I got my meds, I woke up feeling better. It's a wonderful feeling, and I think that those of us on Babble can appreciate it more than most people in this world. We all know what it's like to want to die. We all know the fear of facing another tomorrow that may be worse than today. BUT we all know (on some level, at some point in time) that life really is worth living, and that eventually you will wake up one morning and be truly thankful that you are alive.
Don't destroy your future for the cares and worries of today. You only get to live once, and I promise that it will get better. I know that there is something that you can look forward to, that you won't want to miss. Think about that. Think about your mother- do you know how hard it is to lose a child? And it's even worse when it's to suicide. She would always feel guilty for not doing more, and you don't want that for her. Think about all the potential friendships and relationships that would never happen if you were to give up. I promise they will happen. Anyway, I wish you all the best. Please don't give up. I think I speak for everyone on PSB when I say that we want to wake up tomorrow morning and see a post from you. We're so dependent on each other here, and it rips us apart when someone leaves, especially due to suicide. So, if only for us, don't go.
Pax,
Manda
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