Posted by LiLi80 on April 26, 2002, at 12:18:24
why do people feel as tho they need to inform you of your mental illness. Like i dont already know that my brain doesnt work right anymore, thank you for throwing it in my face that i will never be the saem again, and i dont possess the skills i once had. thanks so much for bringing that to my attention. god she is my best friend and she makes me feel horrible. just cause i cant concentrate on my paper. why does she do this. And she has to make me feel completely incompentent and stupid cause i cant concentrate. like because its the end of the semester i should be cured, and it just makes me so mad. i hate being crippled, why do people have to inform me 20 times a day how horrible i am , and ihow i will not get better, even with therapy, i feel stuck , and my mom made me cancel therapy this week, i really needed to go, and she cancelled it, i gave my car to my friend cause my mom said she would drive me but she backed out and my father and sister were busy. no therapy for lili, this sucks, doesnt she know that i need to go? i am just so mad. i hate being inferior because of this illness. i have no intelligence now. i cant think. the only thing i really ever had. i dont have looks, nobody looks at me, not guys anyway, i am this horrible excuse for a human being, i hate being me. i am just a piece of crap, i dont deserve anything. i should just off myself, i know my mom and everyone is getting so sick of me. my mom constantly says how my grandmother is a pain cause of her dementia and how she wants her to die, i am sure she is saying it about me too. death so nice. i wouldnt leave a note i would just say my last words and thoughts and die. i wish i could just die quickly, no pain, no anger, no hate, no love, no nothing, endless nothiness, nonexistence is better.
poster:LiLi80
thread:22664
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