Posted by Anna Laura on March 3, 2002, at 1:51:29
In reply to happiness?, posted by Penny on March 2, 2002, at 21:03:17
> Just a question I continually struggle with and figured that this might be a good place to pose it...
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> The concept of happiness is extremely elusive to me.
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> Is anyone ever truly happy? I don't mean can they experience periods of joy or can they have fun occasionally, but are there folks out there who love life for what it is and are satisfied with that? Who have their ups and downs but rarely, if ever, see life as something that might not be worth it?I have been happy till the age of 21, when i sank in to the black hole of major depression because of severe stress.
I know what happiness is about: the memory of it keeps me going. I remember i had problems and insecurities like evrybody else did, still the happy feeling was always there to comfort me, every single day. It was like a blessing : i always felt grateful for it and never took it for granted, even if it was constant and seemed everending.
It was there as i wake up every morning: predictable like the sun rising.
The only thing that made me a little sad it was that i wanted to share this feeling with others: i felt a little bit lonely and isolated because of my constant elation.
It wasn't easy to cheer people up as many wouldn't understand what my intentions were.
I have been misunderstood many times as men thought i wanted to get laid and women thought i was crazy: they both felt fine with me but treated me like a clown.
I was so naive back then! I didn't realize how much envy was around me, plus I believed happiness was easy to reach as it was for me.
I just thought most people wouldn't bother
with it as they were engaged in pursuing objectives and goals i couldn't understand.
May be i was childlish and sure i looked rather stupid, but i'd do anything to regain that feeling: it sure made me think life was worth living.
Happiness is very powerful: one day of bliss can wash away thousands of days of despair.Still waiting.....
poster:Anna Laura
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