Posted by dreamer on January 21, 2002, at 1:39:00
In reply to Re: Dreamer...are YOU alright??? » dreamer, posted by kiddo on January 20, 2002, at 18:19:40
> Dreamer-
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> Comforting memories are important. You have to believe there is at least one out there somewhere perhaps unreachable right now because things are so out of sync.
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> It isn't a good sign that you have lost interest in the things that used to be important, but perhaps it is good in another way-if you can focus that interest toward yourself, in healing and getting better; becoming the dreamer you were or want to be.
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> I'm sorry for what's happened in your family. Sometimes the ones who are supposed to keep you safe and accept you for you who are unconditionally are the very ones who hurt us the most. I have no answers for that because I'm going through the same with mine.
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> I really do care. I don't pity you, but empathize because I've been there and know what it feels like to go through what you are...not necessarily the 'exact' same, I hope you know what I mean.
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> We have to change your outlook of the future. Perhaps 'temporarily medicated to help overcome an unfortunate setback'. The future will get better, I know it will. You have to stay strong; and although you may not feel like it, you are. You are still alive, and as long as you are, you are fighting it, and winning. Maybe not as quickly as you'd like or whatever, but you are winning.
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> You are a caring person dreamer. You asked about me when I went through this same thing not too long ago...as a matter of fact, I was taking the Lamictal and when I stopped taking it, that's when all of this started to get better. I was seeing things, hearing things, felt like I could crawl out of my skin, and that I was losing my mind...literally. If you are still taking it, consult your pdoc or whomever and find out if you can make a switch to something else, because the Lamictal may be causing it.
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> It's difficult, if not impossible to create when you are facing this kind of situation. You are still a genius at painting, it's only buried deep under a layer of cement, and will be there again, we only have to chip away and remove the chunks of damaging pieces to find it again.
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> Please talk to your pdoc or doctor about the Lamictal if you are still taking it alright?
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> I don't know why you should feel ashamed for being human....we all are, and I've not seen any behaviour that would warrant shame either?
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> Please hang in there dreamer...although the moon and stars have fallen out of reach, it's only a temporary setback-we'll get you back upon your cloud once more....
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> Remember, I DO care, I'm here if you need me....
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> Kiddo
thanks for being you..been taking pills..only two to help me sleep people upstairs are driving me crazy i'm scared of losing my cool.just need silence i, m a pysical wreck and and have no idea what;s going on in my head.
can't stop crying and for no reason. maybe it is the drug if I'm still like this tommorow I'll call pdoc for a nurse to visit.I'm scared of hospital only because i am staying with a friend looking for somewhere to live and i need more time if i go in i'l end up somewhere where i can't keep my cat and paint and things will be harder.I can't eat so im taking pills on empty stomache.tried listening to music but its painful i cant stand noise the only positive thing is i'm not craving for drink.
I'm not angry i'm just tired just want to melt into oblivion and wake up somewhere new.Can't stand people around me.I'm not lonely just not very comfortable in myself..
I seem a bit better after sleep..i had such a wiered hallucination...it's kinda funny now i can't say what it was.cause it;s really silly.
Suppose your lost now :-)What was your problem.?..maybe it will direct my attention from myself.
This site has helped I've got loads of stuff i wrote that i can turn into something positive wasn't planned but..maybe if i ever leave this dreadfull mental state.
left email....cause I don't know how much the phone bill costs yet.
My hair has turned grey oh boy when did that happen.
I'ts always self when writing at the moment eventually i can help others but this site is driving me crazy for a reason I cannot or will not divulge to anyone.Use my nonsensical head to help yourself....goes
for anyone else also to email me.dreamer shutting the door but taking the key just incase.xxxx
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