Posted by Cass on November 26, 2001, at 22:13:32
In reply to Re: Suicide-Cass, posted by Kristi on November 26, 2001, at 17:30:58
Today has been a roller coaster. First thing this morning, I had left a message with my pdoc's exchange saying that it was urgent. He still hadn't called by 3:00, so I called again and left another message. Around the middle of the day, I got a little potentially good news in terms of finances. I felt a little better. But when I called my pdoc again later, the office had already left. I can't believe he didn't call me back. I also had left him a message last Friday. Why would he ignore an urgent message from me? I owe him money, and his secretary has been upset about it. I've even wondered if she didn't give him the messages, but I doubt she would stoop that low. I am devastated. Doesn't he care if I live or die? I'm alive, as you all can tell, but you have no idea how much I'm teetering on the edge. I have one foot in life and the other in death. I feel like someone who is terminally ill. Death feels so close.