Posted by Cass on October 14, 2001, at 0:06:39
In reply to Re: Dependence on therapists Dinah Cass, posted by galtin on October 13, 2001, at 22:18:16
> Take one father whose expectations of me I could not fulfill, a mother who was an emotional cipher, and my naturally defiant temperament. Add a 13 year career in the ordained ministry marked by steadily progressive alcoholism. Add a liberal dose of personal hypocrisy. The public persona of a respectable and successful minister colliding with a private life morally and logistically out of control. Finally, subtract the quart of vodka a day, add a public booting from the ministry, shake in a sudden, searing shame, and there it was- rabid self hate.
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That is a respectably honest answer. Your life has been tragic, but very interesting. I bet it's the honesty which has led to your success. Denial is the biggest perpetuator of mental illness, IMO. I'm so glad things are going better for you. I've experienced a lot of self-loathing myself which is a result of a pathologically rejecting and demeaning mother and a psychopathic father. They are both out of my life now, but the self-loathing is still present at times. It's such a long road to recovery. I feel that the majority of my adult life to this point has been spent recovering from childhood, although that trend is changing. People are insensitive when they say "Get over it" to child abuse victims. They would probably never say that to a holocaust victim.
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