Posted by susan C on August 2, 2001, at 16:26:57
In reply to Hope things are going better! (np) » susan C, posted by Willow on August 2, 2001, at 16:01:26
Willow,
So nice of you to ask. I am posting a thread on the psychobabble med about the Keppra I started, and I realized just now, reading your query, and thinking about how I am doing compared to when I wrote that post, that there is some kind of background agitation that is gone...for example, I can put up with my son's music in his room while I rest, where before it all had to be quiet, now I don't care, though at the same time I feel like things are distant. I have been having a hard time reading ( or writing ) anything long. Even watching TV is a challenge. It is hard to follow at times. This feeling started with Depakote, but it is different. Depakote by itself was like being numb,shut off, now with this little bit of keppra I feel like all this time goes by and I don't notice. I feel like I am somewhere else. Since Sunday, I am definately better as far as not being as drowsy and dizzy...that is after cutting the starting dose from 500 to 250. I am rambling. thanks for listening. It is so convenient having friends waiting online in the living room.
Mila, thank you again for you post, I have read it several times and as I have been feeling better, kind of, it has really helped give me perspective and support to talk to spouse. S
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> > . > Susan,
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> > > a similar thing happened to me in my marriage. It really broke my heart, but then filled me with determination to get better and keep my husband to myself.
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> > > being a wife is larger than being a lover. but winning his heart, his passion, enfatuation back is a separate task which is not that difficult to achieve, especially for a wife who knows her husband like no one else.
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> > > do not give up, Susan. you do not need this heavy stress in your life today.
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> > > i also offered him to leave first, but then I realized that I myself promised him myself 20 years ago that I will be with him till death do us part. That is what he expects from ME as a spouse. First, I thought that reality shattered my fairy tale marriage, and couldn't continue to be married to this different person anymore. then i discoreved that reality is a very powerful source of changes to the better. He was larger than life for me before. Now I am my own person and my marriage is stronger than ever. instead of little nobody married to a King, we are a royal couple today, if I may use a fairy tale language here without being smiled upon.
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> > > I told him that what he was doing was unacceptable, wrong. We had many long talks and slowly started to piece out lives back together. Of course, trust is an issue afterwards and has to be talked about separately. Now we both sigh with relief that the whole story of his betrayal and my illness is behind us. My illness had an incredible toll on him, especially in the later stages when I developed an acute social anxiety and major depression. He needed some time to heal his sort of PTST afterwards.
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> > > love
> > > mila
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